So now what?

I hate immigration, it is just so frustrating! Some days are easier for me to deal with than others, but today is not one of those days. I don't know why, but today has been especially hard for me. We submitted our application for immigration a month ago. According to the Canada Immigration website, the sponsorship assessment (that would be my part) takes just over 2 months to process. Until that 2 months is up, I have no way of knowing if we even have a shot at our application going through. I find myself checking the website everyday, hoping that if I check it enough, the listed processing times will somehow miraculously change and our family will be able to be together. When I checked the website today however, I was very saddened by what I saw. The processing time for applications from Ecuador has changed, but now the time we must wait is longer. The current processing time is now at 17 months + 1 month more for my sponsorship application...that equals a year and a half that we just have to sit here waiting.  The thought of not having my husband present for the first 2 years of my son's life is heartbreaking and is something that I just cannot wrap my head around. I have to figure out some other way.

Lil L and Lalo reading a surf mag in Ecuador on our last visit. 

We talk to Lalo everyday on the phone, but it is so sad to see the way that Lil' L looks around the room searching for his daddy when he hears his voice. He will stop whatever it is he is doing, and smile the biggest smile and look all around to see where daddy is, but he never finds him, and I feel aweful. He misses his daddy, and so do I.